25 weeks + 2 days, 8 weeks + 4 days post rupture, day 13 at my parent's house.
Still baking. Still leaking. Still recovering after those steroids. They definitely caused fluid retention in my skin and muscles, making me feel a little like a sausage in a casing. I didn't LOOK terribly swollen, but my skin felt tight all over and my legs and feet felt like I'd been standing on them all day (even though I barely stand for longer than 5 minutes at a time). My back and neck still haven't returned to their usual normal bed rest discomfort, even with half a dozen massages my husband gave me over the weekend.
I'm nervous about this week. My mom goes back to work on Wednesday and while we wait to hopefully have nursing home care approved, I've had to ask my mother-in-law and my best friend to share the load and 'babysit' me this week. As much as I hate asking for help, I'm afraid to be alone in case anything happens. I know this problem could be solved by hospitalizing me...but I just can't face going back there to 'stay' yet. I'm not sure when I will feel like it's the 'right time' or if I'll deliver before I get to that point. I hope not. I hope to make it back to the hospital...but with a better outcome predicted so that I won't feel so hopeless and helpless and depressed.
I wish we could have a better idea about how well the lungs are developing. I wish I knew on an hour by hour basis how much fluid I have, and if anything else is going wrong. I wish I didn't feel so afraid all the time. I know I'm repeating myself on here, but that's all I think of all day long and there is very little else to focus on.
I just hope my baby is doing okay. I can take the fear, the pain, the discomfort, the boredom, the stress, as long as Acorn is going to be okay.
In answer to comment #1: Yes I am still feeling movement. Some days more than others, some hours more than others. And if I get nervous, I always have my doppler.