22 weeks, 5 weeks + 2 days post rupture
Thank you to every one who offered to send me tiny baby outfits or who found places to order them online. I have two (one a 500g size and one a 750g size) on order from the UK and a few of you are sending things along in the mail. Hopefully they will all arrive soon, so I can relax about having something for the baby to wear.
Yesterday I watched the movie Rabbit Hole. You may remember that Nicole Kidman was up for an Academy Award for her performance, although I don't think the movie was otherwise recognized. It should have been. It was wonderful. Even though it was about a couple who lost an older child than a baby (I think he was about 3), I could relate to so many of the emotions they felt, and the situations they found themselves in. Especially the conversation that Nicole Kidman has with her on-screen mother in the basement that ends with "it's what you have instead of your son". So true. See it, if you can.
As for me, I'm trucking a long. I'm feeling the baby move a lot more yesterday and today and I haven't leaked since Aidan's Day that I can tell. This makes me both happy and nervous. Happy: "Yeah I haven't leaked, baby is moving, things must be okay in there!" and Nervous: "This is about the same amount of time between my last leaking episodes (9 days), so will it be today? Tonight? Tomorrow? Will I lose a lot? If I leak, will the baby get trapped in some uncomfortable or compromising position? Quick baby! Get your head down in the biggest pocket of fluid and tuck in your arms & legs!"
I've also started to feel "Braxton Hicks" like tightenings of my uterus on occasion. These seem to occur if the baby is moving a lot or if I'm changing positions. Like I'll roll over, or lay down, or get up and I feel it tighten. It often happens too if I REALLY have to pee. Usually it lasts less than 30 seconds and doesn't hurt exactly...but it makes me VERY VERY NERVOUS. My cervix has shortened from 3.2cm at 16 weeks to 2.5cm at my last scan...so I do NOT need any sort of cramping or contractions to make things worse. Also, this is what started to happen in the few weeks before I delivered Aidan. I started to get more and more 'Braxton Hicks' type tightenings (could have been weak contractions, irritation of the uterus from all the bleeding I had, or the start of an infection...who the hell knows at this point?). So when this happened a few times yesterday it drags my hopes down. I'll mention it to the doctor on Tuesday, and inquire about the possibility of p17 shots...but I don't know with all the other things compromising my pregnancy if they'll go for that.
But, must look at the positives. I'm 22 weeks. It's Saturday. It's a nice day. I might even go outside in my backyard for the first time this year...and I'm taking my baby with me.
Did anyone with pPROM out there get Braxton Hicks like pains after rupturing? Did it signify anything in retrospect?