Tuesday, January 4, 2011


Feel free to make fun of me, but I'm a fan of the TV show "Vampire Diaries". (Cue laughter from all 68 followers...). Yeah, I know I'm a total nerd. One of the things that sucked me into watching was that they play a lot of good music on that show. In the pilot episode they managed to dig up one of my favourite songs from years ago. It's a cover of a Kate Bush song called "Running Up That Hill" by the band Placebo. If you remember the trailer for the (crappy) movie Daybreakers, it was also on that (coincidentally also featuring vampires??)

Anyway, since then I've liked how they showcase a bunch of new songs and artists on a regular basis. Pretty much every show there is a song or two that I think "damn, I'll have to google that one and find out who it's by". So, I recently 'acquired' (and by that I most definitely do not mean downloaded, because I would never do something so illegal as that) the entire musical library of the first season and spent hours looking up all the song titles and bands and making an awesome play list for my ipod.

So, coming to the point of this post, I was listening to a song by Mat Kearney on the way home on the subway tonight called "Closer to Love". It's been a 'hit' on the Adult Contemporary top 40 (but don't let that fool you, it's actually a good song). A few of the lyrics hit home for me:

"She said she didn't believe
It could happen to me
I guess, we're all one phone call
From our knees"

I goes on to be a somewhat hopeful song from there, but as you can imagine, I really relate to those lyrics right now. Although I'm 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant, it's still hard to believe that it's for real. As the song says "one phone call" or one missed progesterone tablet (not that I would EVER miss one at this point), one strong cough, even a sharp breeze might end it all. Of course as we all know, I could do everything right and it could still all end. I'm trying to be all zen about it, but it's hard now that it's after Christmas and I don't have the constant family parties/going out for dinner/major crappy viral illness keeping me busy. As my husband said "I wish we could just PVR our lives right now...skip ahead so that we can know if things are going to be okay, and then just rewind and be able to actually enjoy it all". Exactly.

In other news, I took a quick peek at the 'Due in September 2011' board on Babycenter. It only has a few members at this point, but one of the threads is already titled "Nursery Ideas".


I almost spit my juice out all over the screen.

Please, chicky...let's not get ahead of ourselves here. Let's wait to see a heartbeat before we start on room themes.

But damn, I wish I could be naive and hopeful and happy and respond with "well, I was thinking of a light blue for a boy with cream accents...blah blah blah".

How was your New Year's Eve? I spent mine on the couch with an ear ache and a cough. Fun. On the plus side, it was awesome and kind of sad in that "cheesy reminiscent of your teenage years kinda way" to see "NKOTBSB" (that's a combo of the members of New Kids on the Block and 4 of the 5 Backstreet Boys) on TV in Times Square doing mash ups of all their old hits. Wonder if that's what they dreamed of doing back in the day?


  1. i would never make fun of you - i <3 tvd too! :)

  2. Vampire Diaries - bwah ha ha ha! I only laughed because you expected me to, I've never seen it! I DO love that Placebo cover of Kate Bush though.

    More importantly - Nursery Ideas?! Yikes. Hang on in there my dear.

    My NYE was also spent on the couch as I didn't feel too great either :(

  3. that line of that song has struck me, too, every time i hear it.

  4. I LOVE that song and Mat Kearney. Another really good one that I have listened to about a million times is called "Lifeline", its from the same album and it always reminds me of Harper <3.

  5. lol, I love that show too. I never notice the music though, must be too busy looking at Damon.

    I had to leave the babycentre message boards because I just couldn't tolerate all of the mindless chitchat. I keep thinking, "why are you planning all of these things when you don't even know if you can bring the baby home yet" subsequent pregnancy cynicysm.

  6. I watch it too :) Congratulations on another pregnancy- I'm sure Aiden is stoked about a new baby sister/brother to watch over. Only the best kids get to have guardian angel for a sibling (this is what I plan on telling my kids as I explain Claire to them). I'm thinking of you all! Keep rested!