Thursday, July 14, 2011

Ok, I lied I'm back

Day 6, I'm pretty sure.

I just can't stay away from here. I'm feeling a little more comfortable at home, although I wish I didn't have to be so far from Kaia. I get a little nervous at night being away from her and my mind starts to go to "if" rather than "when" and then I get teary and upset. It's hard being a post babylost, post traumatic pregnancy, premature baby mom and dad. We feel a little fragile.

But, on to the update.

First of all, Kaia is doing really well. She's on CPAP, breathing room air (no extra O2), she's got her umbilical lines out and is working up on feeds. It made me so happy yesterday when the nurse said "I don't think she'll be here long". I was thinking that too as an NICU nurse, but it was nice to hear someone else say it. She's currently in a level 3 NICU, and doesn't really need that level of care so they might transfer her to a hospital closer to home, maybe once she's off CPAP. That would be much more convenient, although I've really liked all the nurses she's had and would be sad to leave them behind. I've got to hold her twice now, once 'skin to skin' and that was wonderful. Her skin's so soft and I love her little noises and how content she seems lying on me. It made my uterus contract like a bitch afterwards though...further proof mommy and baby are biologically so connected.

Unfortunately, we also got some terrible news last night. My grandmother, who already suffers from poor eyesight, poor hearing and Alzheimer's, fell and broke her hip. I was so upset for her and for my dad last night. My Dad just got through visiting his daughter at the hospital, his granddaughter is still in the hospital and now so is his mother...and not even the SAME hospital. My Grama has a hard time dealing with 'new' circumstances and the hospital isn't a place she's been very much until now. She's currently stable and awaiting surgery. I was glad to hear she's not in a lot of pain, and she's sleeping a lot, so at least she's not aware of what's going on. It just feels like another "Oh God, what now??!!" element to add to our lives. Plus the summer is the one time of the year that my grandmother probably enjoys the most since my parents take her to the cottage on weekends. Now she'll be hospitalized and in rehab for who knows how long.


I have other fun stuff to write about later, but that might be tomorrow...or the next day.


  1. I'm SO EXCITED to hear that Kaia is only on CPAP and on room air no less! So so happy for you and acornette :) I'm sorry to hear about grandma.

  2. Go Kaia Go! I'm really excited that you both seem to be doing soo good! I look forward to hearing more updates on how both of you guys are doing!

    Prayers for your Grandma


  3. Hurray for Kaia! Every time you write about her I think of her prenatal nickname, and how your little Acorn is growing more and more mighty daily.

    I'm so sorry about your grandma, and I'm hoping she heals well and quickly and manages to get in some fun summer time with your family in spite of this.

  4. I'm glad you came back so soon and I'm glad that you are doing well considering that you don't have Kaia home with you and, of course, that she is doing so well. She is so amazing, but then look at her momma.

    I'm sorry to hear about your Grandma, it must be so hard for everyone.

    Can't wait to see more pictures of Kaia!

  5. I live for updates on little Kaia, I'm so happy that she's trucking right along. She's so gorgeous. I assume you are healing as well as can be expected? I certainly hope so. Continuing to pray for all of your well being.

  6. I too love Kaia updates. She is doing well, what an amazing little girl.

    I am sorry to hear about your grandmother, the extra stress must be hard for everyone to handle.

    I hope you are healing well and taking care of yourself. Your family is never far from my thoughts.

  7. I can about imagine how hard it is for you to be away from your baby girl. Hopefully she can move to a hospital that's closer, or better yet just come home soon.
    Sucks about your Grandma, your family has had more than fair share of hospital visits this year.
    Thinking of you all

  8. I am thrilled to hear about how well Kaia is doing but also so sorry for what is happening with your sweet grandmother. I know how hard it is when an elderly person breaks a hip.. I will be thinking of you and your family.

  9. First of all SO happy for you guys and to hear Kaia is doing so well! Sending hope and positive thoughts your way for her continued progress. Skin to skin is the best isn't it?! I always love that time with my little man; he is also on cpap & in a level 3 NICU!
    So sorry to hear about your grandmother. Thinking of you & sending love ((hugs))

  10. So sorry to hear about your father's mum, but at least you and Kaia are doing well. After worrying for so long it must feel good that at least you two are OK!

  11. I love that you can't stay away. I feel like I've been rooting for acorn along with everything else and selfishly, it feels good to hear how well she is doing. Can't wait to see more pics!

    (I hope that didn't sound bad. I really didn't mean it to :) )

  12. Glad Kaia is doing well. Such great news that they don't think she will be in the nicu long.

    Sorry about your Grandmother. Hoping she copes well with her operation.

    I'm also glad you can't stay away from your blog. I love hearing how your little girl is doing so well. Looking forward to your post that says she is safely home with you. Hope it comes really soon.

  13. Glad to hear you are feeling a teeny bit more relaxed and used to your new reality. So good to hear that Kaia is doing great!

    Get all of that skin to skin time that you can - it's the greatest! I'm sitting here looking at a pic of my husband holding our teeny little guy when he was just a few days old (he was born at 3 lbs 6 oz like Kaia). It is so hard to believe he is the same baby that is sitting on my lap right now at almost 6 months and 14 lbs. Time flies - enjoy it!

  14. What wonderful news, I am so happy for you! and it must be nice to be off bedrest as well...sorry to hear about grandma though, wishing her well.

  15. Yay Kaia!! Keep growing stronger, little one! My dad had a pulmonary embolism a week before the baby was born (is still on O2) and Chris's g-ma died just before that, so I know that stress, minus the NICU baby, so I can't imagine. Hugs!!

  16. Sorry to hear about your Grandma, hope she recovers well but your poor dad hospital to another...yikes.

    I hope you are healing well too. Glad to hear the little lady is progressing well.

    I hope nursing her starts sooner rather than later...for all you have missed, this is one thing I truly hope you get to experience in a positive manner.

    Take care - xo

    Oh did they end up doing the c-section, low transverse or the inverted T?

  17. So good to get an update on beautiful Kaia. I'm also so sorry about your grandmother.

  18. It's good to "see" you and wonderful about Kaia but I am so sorry to hear about your Grandma. We went through similar (dementia + broken hip) with my dad (but not when my son was newborn), so I have some idea how hard that can be and wish her (and your whole family) the best.

  19. Congrats on your gorgeous little baby! I am so happy for you.